For the whole of this month, it seems sooo tiring everyday at work. Due to the overwhelming crowd "I don't know why" I have to be used to it man.
I seldom meet up with bf nowadays after he changed work and we spent lesser time together. He makes the effort to call me up every night and talk to me for that while cause by the time he ends work it was quite late already, I got to head to bed soon by then. *Nevertheless, no changes to our relationship though:)
Took quite a number of photos on certain occasions but have no time to upload it>< Even if I had the time to do so, I would not turn on the computer and do it.. I would rather spend my time relaxing, watching tv and such. When I reached home after work it was already 8pm or later than that.
Some things to be excited about for me :)
Long annual leave starts on tues all the way to the next monday :D *Yay*
Fun walk at McRitchie Resevoir on 24th July
Walkathon event at Jurong on 25th July
Bonus on the way too :) Hope it will b a big one
Finally decided to put on braces, hope to have it checked next week
I used to envy people with nice bright smiles and straight proper teeth when I was younger, now that I have the ability to have it done and I shall do it. No more hesitation this time round. You shall see me with nice nice teeth and confident smile in years to come and im excited about it!
. . . . . . . . I always had a problem in my heart and in my mind. I told Qin about it, bf knows about it also. I think I might need to see a psychologist. When I see someone who is better than me who dress up nicer than me whom I think is nicer looking I will feel very "Zi Bei" I don't know what is it in english but something like I felt inferior when I see somebody else like this.
I thought to myself, why is it that they have the same grading as me but why are they earning much more than me. Why do I still have to wear uniform to work and act like a kid while they dont? Why can't I be like them dressing up for work too? Why????? After that I will get very moody and sad about it. This had been ongoing for years already. After awhile it's alright cause I'll console myself with some other thoughts and then after some time it will come back again.
I told myself, it's okay it's not that bad working in a polyclinic, I get good bonus, I get good medical benefits, I get to see the sad story of old peoples you might not ever see. When people are poor and sick and had got no money with them then only you will realise how sad it was and you will not let yourself be the next one in line.
True enough? Or self decieving?
Forget it I'll stop it then. I'm going to transofrm myself this annual leave. Shall see. goodnight!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
10:08:00 PM
